365 Days

My Baby Boy is ONE!

I don't know how it's possible. I don't know how 365 days have gone by, how a whole year has passed and Reilly is ONE. I just don't know.

I remember a year ago yesterday like it was 10 minutes ago. I remember vividly the sleep I did not get Monday night, getting up and leaving for the hospital as a family of two. I remember knowing that life would never be the same when we came home as a family of three. I remember playing "Name that Tune" during delivery and listening to Dr. Shah talk about his colorful backyard because his dog eats crayons. I remember panicking because Reilly didn't scream like I thought he was supposed to, and most of all I remember holding him on my chest for the very first time and falling in love. I remember every moment of that day like it was yesterday.
In the mean time, I've learned to clean up puke like a pro, to go with smaller amounts of sleep then I've ever imagined, to worry less about things and more about smiles, to live in the moment instead of having to know what's next, I've learned to love like I didn't know was possible, and most of all I've learned that I would allow anything to happen to me before anything could happen to my baby.

Each day in the past year has brought a "new" to our family. A new Christmas, Valentine's Day, Easter, 4th of July, a new smile, food, movement, just a lot of new. I treasure every moment that I get to spend with Reilly. Whether we are playing in the yard, swimming in a pool, sharing a snack, eating dinner, sharing snuggles before bed or he's picking my nose...you couldn't pay me a billion, gazillion, bazillion dollars to trade a single moment with him.

I love that right now, crawling around the house, getting into everything he's not supposed to is his favorite past time. I love that we have to risk Rei playing in the toilet if the bathroom door isn't closed, that we get to find Dave's shoes all over the house if he doesn't put them in the bedroom when he gets home from work. I love that things come up missing from the bottom half of the refrigerator if the kitchen gate isn't up, and I love that we can never find the TV controller or the cordless phone. I love it all!

Being a millionaire wouldn't make me happier than being a mommy does.

Dear Bubbers,

You are the love of my life. I can't believe that you are 1 now. There are so many exciting things for us to do together. I love spending time with you, (especially when you are snugly and let me pretend that you are little and stuck there like you used to be!) I consider being your mommy the best, greatest job ever. There are so many people that love you more than you will ever know. I know you are one, I know the next years will move even quicker than this first one has, but you should know, that you will always be MY little man! Happy Birthday, Big Boy! I love you!
My Heart Is Yours Forever,

Mommy